Hi I am lily.
In my family I have a mom, elder brother & my father passed away three years
back in 2009.
People say; when somebody died their family
members and relatives everyone cry for few days and miss them for few days.
I don’t know about others but I lost my
father, I know how it feels when we lost our loved ones. Every minute every
second I miss my papa, I can’t show anyone how badly I miss papa, because I only
know what my father was for me; strangers or anyone else can’t understand.
There
are bundle of many things which I wanted to share with him, but don’t have any
option to contact him, I wish we would have mobile phone and internet
facilities at heaven to contact our loved ones…
Once my mom
told me when I was a kid; first word which I said that was “papa” not maa. When I
heard that I was like “really papa was my first word” I was amazed as I heard
of babies first word is maa. My father calls me GUDIYA… very special &
adorable word for me….But I don't like if someone else call me gudiya.
As I am the younger one at home everyone loves
me lot, my father too loved me very much, and it doesn’t mean we wasn't fighting.
Even I and papa we fought like kids, my mom used to tell us we are TOM &
JERRY. Within 5 minutes we fought within 5 minutes we patch up. I miss those
moments.
My father
and I used to play chess. My father always wins the game; once I won the game
my father was happier than me.
I remember how
I tell everything whatever I did in school and tuition to maa, papa & bhai…
They all told me “bas kar beta ho gaya baaki kal bata dena”. It’s my habit I tell everything to my parents,
very rare things I hide.
I was in B.com
final year when we got to know that my father had stone in the gall bladder. Then my
father is admitted in hospital, that was a very hectic time for us. As our exams were
going on, and we have to manage so many things, I and my brother had to take
care of mom, dad, hospital, study, college, tuition, home. I understood mom’s
condition; the truth was that I too was very scared, but I can’t show in front of
mom, I had to be very strong in front of her to show her that everything will be
all right, don’t worry. The day of the operation also came, papa’s operation was successful.
Doctors found around 150 stones in papa’s gall bladder which was different
sizes.papa was alive just for 15 days after operation. Actually the stones were
affecting his pancreas so doctors had to shift him in ICU then he left us……
I feel
myself unlucky as I didn't hear my father’s last word; he might want to say
something to me.
Life goes
on but the fragrance of memories is still fresh, So many things to ask, so many
things to share, but can’t help it as you are not here.
Hope you feel proud and happy to see me from
heaven…
:)
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